Please, be you again.
Everything’s different in this new place I know
And I know that you feel like you don’t belong.
You’ve made so many attempts to adapt and blend in
You’ve got a new job, made new friends
All the while trying to maintain that infectiously upbeat attitude that you’ve always had
But you still miss everything that was once so familiar.
You miss your childhood friends, your house, your village, your old life
This new place is foreign
It rubs you the wrong way.
You turn a wrong corner and you’re lost for hours there
It’s not familiar: it’s not home.
And you’ve changed as a result.
You’ve become deflated.
Because nobody is on your side there
The people who you come home to are a poor excuse for family
They treat you as a burden upon them
They don’t understand your condition
And so they label you ‘crazy’ instead and take every opportunity to kick you when you’re down
It’s not fair.
That girl who was always so optimistic, laughing melodically at the drop of a hat
Now can’t seem to raise a smile.
That sadness has translated into a lack of appetite
And now you’re just skin and bones.
That dancing light in your eyes has been extinguished.
They’ve broken you down.
I wish we could take away your pain.
I wish we could be there to tell you everything will be ok
But we’re oceans away
And phone conversations will not suffice.
You don’t deserve any of this, you’re the best person I know
Naïve and innocent with a heart of pure gold.
So for now we need you to dig deep and find some strength.
Find the strength to fight
Find the strength to stand tall
Find the strength to be your own support system
Show them all that you are indestructible
And that you’re much greater than they may tell you.
No matter how many times they push you down
You’ll always get back up with that massive toothy grin plastered across your face
You’ll be that lovable, outgoing person who we all care about so much again
You’ll be you again.